bull: .posted by collin on May 7 at 19:43:19
The underwater bulldozer.
The Best Country in the World: .posted by ben on May 7 at 02:11:31
So, I sit, trying to think of a way to express myself coherently at 1:19am. This is not going to happen. In my mind, this means I should just write and hope that whatever comes out isn't too inflammatory.
I went out to dinner with Lucia the other night. We went to the Boulder Cafe. I hadn't been there in years, and the food was better than I had remembered. After dinner, we walked back to her apartment and talked for a few hours.
Somehow, somewhy, I mentioned nonplatonic. That was a grand moment in the tradition of bad ideas. She looked at the site, particularly at the essay on our prom. I hate dances, and so I hated that one. So, the essay isn't quite complimentary. Not good, not good at all.
She read that, then she read Collin's bit on Gross reservoir (previous wasabi). She of course, passed this on to Betsy, who read both. Not good, not good at all.
All I can do is cling to the fact that I wrote the bit on prom a few years ago before I really knew Betsy (or Lucia). Kind of embarrassing when someone actually reads the stuff you write, though it makes me feel better somehow for others to know just how screwed up I am. From that, maybe empathy can be created...
The most painful thing was that Betsy compared wasabi to maxim. I don't think that's quite fair. Maxim has no fetish porn, lacks the poetry of Li Po, HD, Ezra Pound, and Elizabeth Browning. Maxim contains no sexual introspection or desperation, no poetry, has complimentary garbage about sports and beer. Most of all, maxim accepts the pictures of women acting stupid as somehow pertaining to reality. I post those pictures, but acknowledge their absurdity.
Betsy was also mad at me for how the site doesn't have equal numbers of naked men and women. It has more naked women because I post more than anyone else, and I like to look at those pictures. Yes, I am at least moderately comfortable with my sexuality! If you want pictures of men, look below. Hell, I even like these. Betsy, Lucia, Jo? If you look at this mess, tell me what you think. Are these good pictures, I'm curious how they relate to the odd world of female sexuality. And if anyone wants to post, mail me and I'll make you an account.
That was refreshing. It's now 1:35, I should really be asleep, but I'm not. My neural network is getting 99.56% accuracy on speech recognition. Victory is mine.
Links. I've found some cool stuff recently... free oxen is cool nerve hoopee Boosting Trouble Fur Deluxe Pictures Strange Racist People Userfriendly All your base are...You know. And I get shit from people? Sanity here I come Scenes from Clerical Life by George Eliot
99.638% I have a final in less than 12 hours.
I don't think there is a difference between pornography and art. Even if there is, pursuing it can only cause harm. There is probably a continuum between the two.
"Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances."
This is good, but not the strongest worded stuff.
"When in the Course of human events, it becomes necessary for one people to dissolve the political bands which have connected them with another, and to assume among the powers of the earth, the separate and equal station to which the Laws of Nature and of Nature's God entitle them, a decent respect to the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to the separation.
We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.--That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, --That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness. Prudence, indeed, will dictate that Governments long established should not be changed for light and transient causes; and accordingly all experience hath shewn, that mankind are more disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same Object evinces a design to reduce them under absolute Despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such Government, and to provide new Guards for their future security."
Our nation was based on such grand prinicipals. Vonnegut writes about how the most important thing is that no document of ours supposes divine inspiration, rather we leave those things alone. When those things are tampered with, everything goes to hell. I can imagine the Constitution was intended to defend the "obscene," but it serves that purpose admirable, and so it should.
And yes, I am a crazy, 20 year, old idealist.
Nothing to Say: .posted by ben on May 5 at 01:03:21
Finals and sexual frustration are creeping in, trying to destroy me. They will.
I like the one in the middle, the other two seem a little disturbing. I still don't understand the French maid fetish. The wetsuit thing is a new one to me. Function follows form in sex. Sounds like some kind of car commercial uring me to buy a minivan.
I was reading Palm Sunday. In there Vonnegut makes the rather obvious claim that people who have nothing to write about shouldn't write. I guess that means I should stop writing.
Long Live the Patriarchy: .posted by ben on May 3 at 01:01:49
All things considered, looking at porn is probably better than going out and killing people ala clocktower snipers. Imagine if little children looked at porn instead of shooting each other. Imagine all the... little children who would be alive.
Death to angst, life liberty and pornography for all. Regardless of race, creed, or amusing hairstyles pornography for the masses.
Relax and watch the porn. The idealized world of the idealized woman. The idealized world that the idealized woman lives in? At any rate, both the porn star and the porn setting look pleasant.
I need a fireplace. A fireplace, warm bed, bottle of wine, and a faux bearskin rug. Little cabin up on the continental divide.
Good music, good liquor, and foreign poetry quietly whispered. English sounds so banal, why not French, German, perhaps some mangle of French Polynesian something or other.
The real world is so cruel, so cold. The poetic, pornographic world is much kinder, warmer, fuzzier, and most importantly soft. Soft in a way a 21inch monitor is not. How many men talk about the size of their monitor?
Relaxed pornography to the muse of Canton. I wonder if Canton is anywhere near as pleasant as the music sounds. I need to curl up somewhere, anywhere warm. Oh to have been born with a different sexual orientation.
Compare and Contrast: .posted by ben on May 3 at 00:41:20
I remain convinced that sex is about power. One group is always trying to oppress another. In my mind, this isn't really the problem. Sex is no fun if it isn't about power. Likewise, its no good if one person (or sex) has all the power. In my twisted, strange, personal universe, sex should involve a relatively constant exchange of power with one individual dominant (though not necessarily in the BSDM sense) at any given time.
Take positions for example, isn't it more fun to trade which person is on top?
I've lost my mind, I realize this.
Need food. Probably need sleep more than that.
18th century BSDM: .posted by ben on May 3 at 00:21:20
The patriarchy is evil. We must crush them and create a new world where women oppress men, only then will justice be served. Then, we can have sculptures of men in chains be art and relegate those of women in chains to obscenity.
Redefine sexism, free the proletariat, meat is murder, buy organic, vote green, ski locally, think globally! Idealized, conceptualized, rationalized, materialized bumper stickers for all!
Jesus loves you. I know what Jesus would do, listen to me!
And remember that evolution is a hoax propagated by liberals to keep the masses from finding God (be sure to capitalize god... oh shit..., I mean God).
And remember, your left hand is for wiping your ass.
"The Greek Slave" -Hiram Powers
They say Ideal Beauty cannot enter The house of anguish. On the threshold stands An alien image with enshackled hands, Called the Greek Slave! as if the artist meant her (That passionless perfection which he lent her Shadowed not darkened where the sill expands) To so confront manís crimes in different lands With manís ideal sense. Pierce to the center, Artís fiery finger! and break up ere long The serfdom of this world! appeal, fair stone, From Godís pure heights of beauty against manís wrong! Catch up in the divine face, not alone East griefs but west, and strike and shame the strong, By thunders of white silence, overthrown. -Elizabeth Barrett Browning
dumb: .posted by fuzzybunny on Apr 30 at 15:20:21
Something I recently read on ebay that I wish I hadn't:
"The frame is entirely built in carbonium."
Love Labors Dead: .posted by ben on Apr 25 at 20:59:09
I tried to get Be to run, it didn't. I don't think it likes multiple graphics cards. I think I've grown past the point of being amused by idiots, and have becomed annoyed. This is not good.
The English language is going to hell. Quote is a noun, abitrator is a respectable synonym for arbiter... worst of all, ugly people fill the free porn sites. Our language is going to hell and everything else with it. The best novel I've read is a long to wasn't written by an Englishman, not ever a citizen of the glorious USA, but by Carlos Fuentes. How is it that someone can write a superior novel in a language not their own? Ah, for the good old days when poets were poets and mice were men.
I don't know what that was supposed to mean, but I know that the intent was spiteful.
Some things need no introduction.
The names of the pictures claim they are of "katie." I wonder if that is actually her name, or something designed by pornography producers to sound naive, vulnerable, innocent, and something else I can't think of right now.
Such is the way of the Dow.
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